Ahhh... the time has come to make the list that I measure myself against at the end of the year. This is the list that usually frustrates me to no end, though there have been years that I have come out ahead of the game. Unlike many people, I can't make this list in a day or two. It usually takes me at least a week to develop a good list. And while I'm making the list, I'm actually working on things on the list. So here are the assorted goals for 2012.
1) Work on relationships: God, family and friends
2) This one has been on every list for the past 10 years I think. But this year there are some modifications. I am wanting to lose weight & get healthy. However, I am breaking the year down into obtainable goals and hopefully this will be a more manageable / doable thing.
I know weight and size may not quite mesh so final size I would like to be a 10, ultimate would be a size 8, but don't know what the reality on that is going to be. And yeah, I'm throwing it out there for the universe. It's not that I want everyone to know that I'm fat, not that you can't tell that by looking, but I do want that accountability. Joy.
- Beginning Goal Weight: 170 pounds
- - Intermediate Goal Weight: 155 pounds
- - - Final Goal Weight: 145 pounds
- - - - Ultimate Goal Weight: 135 Pounds
3) Write.
I am a writer. I need to develop the story I've been working on and push past some of the limitations I have placed in front of me.
4) Simplify & Organize Life: Home and Work
- Simplify Closets : Get rid of the clutter and distractions that I don't need.
This includes cleaning out the closets & drawers that have plagued me for the past couple of years. I have a tendency to keep clothing I can't wear. I'm sure it's because I'm overweight and I long to be a smaller size. But I have even kept clothes I can't stand that are the size I currently am. Really? Why? Accomplished. Hubby and I did this last night and now there is a HUGE pile of clothes in the living room. Now to figure out where those are going to go. To sell / to give away or what. Oy!
- 4a) Simplify Virtual Reality: Facebook/ Friends - started de-friending those who are taking up space or my favorite - the dude who couldn't write a status update without cussing. Accomplished
- 4b) Simplify Email: Clean out all the inboxes and saved emails. in progress This is going to take a while, but hopefully by the end of the month I will have this taken care of. Woot!
- 4c) Organize all the "files" on my work and home computers. This too will take a while. However, I am hoping by the end of the month to have this taken care of.
5) Get finances under control and get rid of as much debt as possible
6) Look in to going back to school / career options
Ok... this is the list as it exists for now. Of course, this is always subject to change blah, blah, and blah. More later from the flip side.
Cel
Sunday, January 8, 2012
Saturday, December 31, 2011
2011 Finale
2012 is hours away for me... in other parts of the universe it's already here and I'm sure it was greeted with fireworks and grandiose displays of bright lights and oooh's and ahhhh's. I am actually going to spend the evening with friends and family chowing on finger foods and playing games, but this year, I'm thinking I would rather just curl up in bed and sleep. I love my family and friends, but I'm tired and haven't been a big fan of this year.
I'm sure I will have resolutions for 2012 and will be thinking about what I accomplished over 2011 and what went awry, but at this time... a moment of silence for the year that is ending. May 2012 bring something new and different on the horizon.
Peace to all...
I'm sure I will have resolutions for 2012 and will be thinking about what I accomplished over 2011 and what went awry, but at this time... a moment of silence for the year that is ending. May 2012 bring something new and different on the horizon.
Peace to all...
Friday, November 4, 2011
Just Checking In
It's been awhile since I've written. Things have been a bit nuts around the casa and getting everything in order has taken some time. I can't say it's all in order yet, but it's getting there.
Yesterday, I ended up with a WHOPPER of a migraine. I have had migraines on and off for years and occasionally one will pretty much strike me down. I'm never a fan of them and yesterday was no exception. I went to the doctor and got back on preventative medications. Hopefully, they will quell the recurrance of this ailment.
I am still working on losing some weight. I had lost about 15 pounds and then regained 6. I think it's a case of two steps forward, one step back. However, I'm trying to get back into the swing of things again. We'll see how it goes. Time for now to get back to work...
Yesterday, I ended up with a WHOPPER of a migraine. I have had migraines on and off for years and occasionally one will pretty much strike me down. I'm never a fan of them and yesterday was no exception. I went to the doctor and got back on preventative medications. Hopefully, they will quell the recurrance of this ailment.
I am still working on losing some weight. I had lost about 15 pounds and then regained 6. I think it's a case of two steps forward, one step back. However, I'm trying to get back into the swing of things again. We'll see how it goes. Time for now to get back to work...
Monday, August 22, 2011
Duck Duck Goose
What is the big deal with all the "celebrity duck faces" circling the internet? Seriously? Do we not have more important things to do than to watch celebrities quasi-pucker up? I am much more interested in Lindsey Lohan copying Pippa's reception gown, the 6 foot wedding cake no one at Kim Kardashian's wedding ate or the resumation of Kat Von D's relationship with Jesse James now that LA Ink has been cancelled. If you believe any of that, I can probably get you a great water-front condo on the Brooklyn Bridge.
The last week has been nuts to say the least and I haven't achieved any of the goals I set for myself, other than losing a whopping 4 pounds!!! Woot. (Doing a little jig here - did you feel the earth move? No. That's because I'm 4 pounds lighter.) And on that note... I need to actually accomplish one goal before 1600 hours. Adios.
The last week has been nuts to say the least and I haven't achieved any of the goals I set for myself, other than losing a whopping 4 pounds!!! Woot. (Doing a little jig here - did you feel the earth move? No. That's because I'm 4 pounds lighter.) And on that note... I need to actually accomplish one goal before 1600 hours. Adios.
Wednesday, August 17, 2011
The Write Diet
Exhaustion makes me want to eat. Eating involves about 30 Oreo cookies.
The struggle is on today.... I've had three hours of sleep and when I'm tired I ALWAYS crave sugary snack foods.
I have been reading Julia Cameron's book, "The Write Diet" which helps the writer in me process this whole weight loss journey in a different way. Something that has stuck with me after reading this is her list of 4 questions that are already making a huge difference for me.
Am I hungry?
Is this what I want to eat?
Is this what I want to eat now?
Is there something else I can eat instead?
I'm still trying to figure out the difference in hunger and the emotional eating habits that fall under "angry, bored, or tired." However, when I get to questions two and three... I really stop and think about the "want" ... and question 4 settles it. If I really do want the Oreo now, I would eat it. However, I can generally find something to eat instead that even if it has the same calories, has a better nutritional value.
Now that's some food for thought....
The struggle is on today.... I've had three hours of sleep and when I'm tired I ALWAYS crave sugary snack foods.
I have been reading Julia Cameron's book, "The Write Diet" which helps the writer in me process this whole weight loss journey in a different way. Something that has stuck with me after reading this is her list of 4 questions that are already making a huge difference for me.
Am I hungry?
Is this what I want to eat?
Is this what I want to eat now?
Is there something else I can eat instead?
I'm still trying to figure out the difference in hunger and the emotional eating habits that fall under "angry, bored, or tired." However, when I get to questions two and three... I really stop and think about the "want" ... and question 4 settles it. If I really do want the Oreo now, I would eat it. However, I can generally find something to eat instead that even if it has the same calories, has a better nutritional value.
Now that's some food for thought....
Thursday, July 21, 2011
Hey Jealousy
"Hey Jealousy" is a song by the Gin Blossoms and it's quite good. The reality of jealousy isn't quite as good and can leave a person confused and angry. Tonight, my mother's jealousy and mental illness combined together to create an unpleasant situation.
My youngest just celebrated her 16th birthday, which I believe I covered briefly the other day. We were scheduled to go to dinner with my mother one night this week and I MISTAKENLY thought it was dinner, not a delay in her birthday celebration. I don't know why and this wouldn't have been an issue if mother weren't so agoraphobic and made her real celebration like everyone else did. I'm sure we discussed this as her make-up birthday dinner, but for whatever reason, my short-term memory isn't all that and a bag of chips lately. So.... the conversation went something like the following (but not exactly because remember that short term memory loss?)
Me: We're good for dinner, but it will be the four of us. J is out of town with K, B, and B for her birthday. They went to Oklahoma City.
Mom: Well, if she's not going, I'm not going?
Me: Why not?
Mom: Because it's her birthday dinner.
Me: I'm sorry, I got it messed up. I forgot it was her birthday dinner.
Mom: And I think she's spending entirely too much time over there. She's spending two nights a week and now she's gone for the weekend? What is she, their other daughter?
Me: No mom.with an inward groan She's spending time over there because she wants to and there's not much for her to do here in the summer.(Because the other 3 of us in the house are working / school) Plus, she spends a bit of time cleaning and helping around the house.
More conversation back and forth until:
Me: If you want her to spend time over there or want some help, then ask her like K & B do. If you want her to clean or whatnot just call her.
Mom: LONG PAUSE.... I don't want to do things like K & B do.
Me: I understand that, but it's not like J can come spend that much time over there. Referring to spending the night more than anything else. There's no place for her to sleep or anything. She's over there helping them clean because they need the help.
Mom: (Screaming) They don't need help.... and then the subtle sounds of disconnect.
Yes, I did the daughterly duty and tried to call back. I let the phone ring through multiple phone calls over 50 times. I give up. I'm not calling her back and if she wants to talk to me, then she better have an apology ready.
I am so tired of her being jealous because 1) other people are doing what she wants to do, but can't do not because of physical infirmity, but because her mind won't let her. 2) I'm tired of her blaming everyone else for her decisions. I can honestly say I will be grateful when I don't have to deal with this any more. I love my mother, just as I love my father (may he rest in peace.) However, when you have someone in your family who is mentally ill, the emotional cost can be too high and at this point, I'm tired and don't want to deal with it. No wonder my children don't want to call her - it's too much of an effort.
And speaking of effort, I'm done with my rant. Time for snoozing.
My youngest just celebrated her 16th birthday, which I believe I covered briefly the other day. We were scheduled to go to dinner with my mother one night this week and I MISTAKENLY thought it was dinner, not a delay in her birthday celebration. I don't know why and this wouldn't have been an issue if mother weren't so agoraphobic and made her real celebration like everyone else did. I'm sure we discussed this as her make-up birthday dinner, but for whatever reason, my short-term memory isn't all that and a bag of chips lately. So.... the conversation went something like the following (but not exactly because remember that short term memory loss?)
Me: We're good for dinner, but it will be the four of us. J is out of town with K, B, and B for her birthday. They went to Oklahoma City.
Mom: Well, if she's not going, I'm not going?
Me: Why not?
Mom: Because it's her birthday dinner.
Me: I'm sorry, I got it messed up. I forgot it was her birthday dinner.
Mom: And I think she's spending entirely too much time over there. She's spending two nights a week and now she's gone for the weekend? What is she, their other daughter?
Me: No mom.with an inward groan She's spending time over there because she wants to and there's not much for her to do here in the summer.(Because the other 3 of us in the house are working / school) Plus, she spends a bit of time cleaning and helping around the house.
More conversation back and forth until:
Me: If you want her to spend time over there or want some help, then ask her like K & B do. If you want her to clean or whatnot just call her.
Mom: LONG PAUSE.... I don't want to do things like K & B do.
Me: I understand that, but it's not like J can come spend that much time over there. Referring to spending the night more than anything else. There's no place for her to sleep or anything. She's over there helping them clean because they need the help.
Mom: (Screaming) They don't need help.... and then the subtle sounds of disconnect.
Yes, I did the daughterly duty and tried to call back. I let the phone ring through multiple phone calls over 50 times. I give up. I'm not calling her back and if she wants to talk to me, then she better have an apology ready.
I am so tired of her being jealous because 1) other people are doing what she wants to do, but can't do not because of physical infirmity, but because her mind won't let her. 2) I'm tired of her blaming everyone else for her decisions. I can honestly say I will be grateful when I don't have to deal with this any more. I love my mother, just as I love my father (may he rest in peace.) However, when you have someone in your family who is mentally ill, the emotional cost can be too high and at this point, I'm tired and don't want to deal with it. No wonder my children don't want to call her - it's too much of an effort.
And speaking of effort, I'm done with my rant. Time for snoozing.
Tuesday, July 19, 2011
Radio, Birthdays and Other Adventures
Yesterday was my youngest's 16th birthday, but because of life and all of it's adventures, we celebrated with friends and family on Sunday. I would just like to say to my kiddo, "I love you... You are amazing."
And I would like to add that despite the birthday, I did fairly well on keeping to the diet and instead of eating the two slices of cake and a half gallon of icecream, I had 1 slice of cake (and tried not to eat any of the icing) and had 4oz of the icecream. yay! My calories were exceeded; however, I'm not going to beat myself up over it too much because I got back on track yesterday. The diet is going okay so far. I'm using CalorieKing to track my food and exercise and it's a program that WORKS.
In other news... I'm totally digging the work at FM90. Being back on the air after such a long hiatus is a little weird, but I'm reconnecting to a part of myself that I hadn't seen in a while. It's nice to rediscover yourself after a long absence. www.kacvfm.org
You can catch me and Tommy tonight from 9 til Midnight covering the best alternative music from the 1990's.
More from the flip side a little later... lunch break is almost over and I need to take a walk.
And I would like to add that despite the birthday, I did fairly well on keeping to the diet and instead of eating the two slices of cake and a half gallon of icecream, I had 1 slice of cake (and tried not to eat any of the icing) and had 4oz of the icecream. yay! My calories were exceeded; however, I'm not going to beat myself up over it too much because I got back on track yesterday. The diet is going okay so far. I'm using CalorieKing to track my food and exercise and it's a program that WORKS.
In other news... I'm totally digging the work at FM90. Being back on the air after such a long hiatus is a little weird, but I'm reconnecting to a part of myself that I hadn't seen in a while. It's nice to rediscover yourself after a long absence. www.kacvfm.org
You can catch me and Tommy tonight from 9 til Midnight covering the best alternative music from the 1990's.
More from the flip side a little later... lunch break is almost over and I need to take a walk.
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